Monday, February 27, 2006

Bone Marrow Aspiration Done on 23/2/2006

Hi ,
Josh is much, much better now except for a little cough. No more fever.

As for me, a bone marrow aspiration was done last Thursday. Interestingly, one can imagine all sorts of things and questions and even plans when the thought of a possible relapse comes. It's all in the mind and it affects my belief system and feelings begin to roll inside. Sometimes, it starts to rain when I think of it and how much time I have left to do what I've planned to do with the rest of my life. Yet, the Bible says in Prov 16:

1Mortals make elaborate plans,
but GOD has the last word.

2Humans are satisfied with whatever looks good;
GOD probes for what is good.


3Put GOD in charge of your work,
then what you've planned will take place.

4GOD made everything with a place and purpose;
even the wicked are included--but for judgment.

5GOD can't stomach arrogance or pretense;
believe me, he'll put those upstarts in their place.

6Guilt is banished through love and truth;
Fear-of-GOD deflects evil.

7When GOD approves of your life,
even your enemies will end up shaking your hand.

8Far better to be right and poor
than to be wrong and rich.

9We plan the way we want to live,
but only GOD makes us able to live it.

It is so good to know that my life is in His Hands and I can stay secure in Him every moment of the day. Once again I am reminded, that God can be trusted. It's a new day, a new day to renew my trust and confidence in the maker of my life again.

Bless each of you to have a blessed week where you place all your confidence in Jehovah God!

david

Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.

-- Corrie ten Boom

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Josh is better/ my back aches

Hi,
thank you for praying for Josh - he is better today but still has slight fever.
His general condition is stable and thank God, he is still very cheerful and playful except for a while last night when the ulcer in the mouth caused some pain.

I would like to request prayer for my backache, near the Right kidney region.It's been aching this whole day. Hope it's not any kidney problem. Also had bleeding piles this morning with slight diarrhoea.No fever.Recently had been feeling thirsty in spite of drinking lots of water to hydrate myself, thus waking up more to use the restroom.

I will be seeing Dr. Koh tommorrow at SGH for the above problems and usual follow up.

Will update you again.



Clinging on to Jesus,
david

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Josh - Fever still soaring high

Dear all,
Brought Josh to see the doctor yesterday. Diagnosed to have viral infection. So he's on syptomatic treatment for the fever and blocked nose. The fever goes up and down. The last temperature taken today at noon was 40C.

We want to thank you for praying for us,
david & Whee Ling

Monday, February 20, 2006

Pray for Josh - down with high fever

Dear friends,
Josh is down with very high fever today. It was about 39.7 at about 11pm. He was complaining of an abdominal upset in the middle of the night. He has no diarrohea or vomitting. Probably exhausted and dehydrated due to late nights the past few days because of the memorial services at Whee Ling's grandma's wake. The fever has subsided as supporsitory was given him to bring the temperature down.Please pray he will not have any infection and get well soon.

On Monday, the 8th rib of my left chest was fractured when I was doing something. I heard the crack sound and immediately, I knew it must be a fracture because the pain was exactly the same type and nature I had in Sept 2004 when 3 of my ribs were broken prior to my diagnosis of Multiple myeloma.

The following day, I saw Dr.Koh L P, another consultant at SGH. I was assured and sent home Dr William Hwang, my transplant physician is away on a conference overseas. Though he was away, I kept him informed regularly of my condtion. He has always been so very kind and caring in looking after me despite his busy schedule and personal life. Am really thankful for these doctors who operate as an united team.

As soon as I got home, I was running a temperture. I was afebrile when my temperature was taken at SGH. Therefore, I went back to the hospital as advised to whenever I have a fever.

A series of blood and urine tests were done including the cultures to see if there is any infection in the system. Dr. Hwang also advised a full Myeloma studies and a skeletal survey be done. The results will only be out much later during the week or so. Please pray that there will be no relapse as I can't imagine going all over again. Honestly,it is scary, but it comforts me just to know that God is watching over me all the time.

In the midst of all my concerns, my heart was encouraged by the Nurse manager of the haematology Centre, SGH. She gave me a poem entitled "don't quit". It is very easy to succumb to the negative emotions during such a time. At times, I get very tired of all the check-ups; medications and their side-effects. Sometimes, when the physical afflictions come, it affects me psychologically, often how long more do I have to pull thru. And, if not for the Lord's word and guidance, not working to provide for my family sometimes make me feel very lousy, let alone losing the entire ministry after obeying the Lord to start the ministry at RiverPlace Church.All these things do make me feel that life has become purposeless, yet in all these, I learn to wait upon Him in stillness of my heart each day in order to find His purpose for all that He has allowed me and given me the strength to go thru. I'd almost quit, but glad I didn't as I hung on to the promise in Psm 23:6 that "surely the goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life".

Many of you came to bring God's comfort and strength to us - Whee Ling was very close to her grandma and your presence meant so much to her in a time of loss like this.The funeral was on Sat 18/2 and she is very exhausted having to be at the wake for so many days. She had been taking me to the hospital to and fro and now, when just when all the dust is about to settle down, here comes a spike of fever on Josh.
Another battle - but we know that God will never fail us by giving us the strength though we grow tired and weary.

We await to see God's goodness in the land of the living,

Thank you for your prayers.
david


Don't quit
One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...
I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds,
I took very good care of them.
I gave them light. I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.

Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

"In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.

In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed.
"I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots.
Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling,
you have actually been growing roots"

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.
"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.
Yet, they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high!"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and bring back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
He will never give up on you.

God says in Psalms 84: 11 that the Lord Jesus is your “sun (to give you warmth and joy) and shield (to protect you) and He will not withhold good things from those who walk uprighteously.” No problem is too big for God to carry on His shoulder. Come to Him in prayer.

Never regret a day in you life.
Good days give you happiness;
Bad days give you experiences;
Both are essential to life.

Keep going....don't quit.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Need your prayers

Dear all,
I had been waking often at night to drink because of my hiccups. As a result, I tend to go to the toilet often as well. Usually I cannot sleep by 5+ in the morning due to hunger too. The constant waking caused me to be exhausted and have headache.

Plese pray for Whee Ling too - she is very tired physically as well.

Thank you for praying,
david

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

My Discharge & Demise of Whee Ling's Grandma

Dear all,
With God's grace new measure of grace each passing day, He has enabled me to cross over another hurdle. The infection has been cleared. I was discharged yesterday after the blood cultures show no negative results.

Please pray for Whee Ling as she has been very exhausted after running up and down SGH to see me and her grandma as well.Her grandma, who is 89, a christian, went to be with our maker early this morning at 5am. From a patient's perspective, I am glad the Lord has relieved her of her suffering as she is very old, bed-ridden with very badly broken skin lesions and discharges. Whee Ling has gone down to the hospital again and do pray for strength and comfort for the family.

Thanks - for all your sms-es, calls and visits - our hearts are strengthened by your love and prayers.

dave

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Joshua's rabbits

 
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Giving up the rabbits

Thank God David is not having fever anymore. He is on IV antibiotics. We are praying and hoping that the blood culture result be good and he could be discharged soon.

We were not sure how David could have gotten the infecion and in order to rule out every possibile cause, we thought it might be good to persuade Josh to give away his 2 pet rabbits. The rabbits were given to him a few months ago and Josh loves playing with them. David's mum and I told him Daddy's hospitalisation may be due to hygiene problem caused by the rabbits. With that, our sensible little boy told me "I was also thinking that the rabbits were not so good for Daddy. When I carry and play with them, some fur came out. I think we can give them away and when Daddy is well, we can keep another pet." I was so overjoyed to have some a caring and understanding son. Praise the Lord for His good works in Joshua's life! Though he may be young, slightly more than 5 1/2 year old, he does show a maturity beyond his age.

So, now what we need to do is to find out who would want to adopt those rabbits. Mike's friend expressed interest to have them and we hope they could quickly find their new home before David is discharged from the hospital.

God bless,
Whee Ling

Being admitted to SGH again

David finally got up at 7:30pm after lying down/sleeping since 10:30am on his birthday. He was found to be running a fever, 37.9 degrees. We quickly arranged for him to leave for A&E. Dr William ever cautioned us to be admitted once he was found to have fever. We were thankful that he did not have any fever eversince his transplant up till now. Without further delay, Michael, his brother and I sent him to A&E. Within less than an hour, his temperature shot up to 38.9. When the doctor mentioned his fever was almost 39, I was so glad we made the right move. He had a jab, took an X-ray and was promptly warded. The X-ray result showed a little infection in his lungs. Of course, he would have to go thru all necessary tests, from blood culture to... Other than feeling extremely exhausted and cold, he also complained about his persistent headache which started in the morning. While Michael sent us to the hospital, I was praying and also sms-ing prayer requests to uphold him before the Lord, our Healer. When I left the hospital, he was already visibly better. Priase the Lord! Having prayer support from family and friends is the greatest form of support and comfort I experienced.

Even though this is not exactly the preferred way to celebrate David's birthday, it was heart warming to know so many people cared for David. We deeply appreciate all for praying and also the kind and loving intention of some of our friends who actually planned to give David a surprise celebration. He smiled when I told him of the foiled plan to bless him. I knew from his expression his heart was blessed by the love and friendship.

God is love.

While driving back from the hospital, a song I knew when I was in school came to my mind:

"My Lord loves me and Oh the wonder I see,
The rainbow shines in my window,
My Lord loves me."

Knowing He loves me gives me hope and strength for each new day.
Be blessed by His love!
Whee Ling

Saturday, February 11, 2006

prayfordavid - on his birthday

Today is David's birthday. When I asked Joshua this morning what special occassion 11Feb is, he answered without hesitation "it is Daddy's birthday!". So our sweet little darling boy wished his daddy "Happy Birthday, Daddy!" the moment he saw him.

Today is a day of celebration for our family. While for weeks I was thinking about how to celebrate - a surprise party?, get-together with family and friends... but with my grandma in the hospital and the adjustment we are going through with our new domestic helper (our previous helper Connie has gone home to tend to her family's needs after being with us for 5 years), I did not manage to make any plans. But thank God for David's family. His parents and siblings organized a birthday celebration at our place. Right now as I am updating this blog, they are busy cooking, making preparation for dinner. The only problem is David is still sleeping, resting in bed. He looked pale this morning and had gone back to bed right after a light breakfast. He complained of stomache cram but assured me his is ok. I requested for him to sms Dr Hwang but he said it is not necessary. He has been sleeping till now and I am getting a bit worried. Please pray that he is ok.

Thanks & God bless,
Whee Ling

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Dear all,
Just to update you - the Cystoscopy was cancelled as the Dr thinks that the urine tests done as well as the other investigations were normal. My next review with the Urologist is in a month's time.

Dr. William Hwang plans to cut down the dosages of the immuno-suppresants that I have been taking. This will help reduce the side effects of the medications. But great care and control are needed. Please pray for wisdom upon him as he carefully monitors my condition. I feel safe in his hands.My next appointment is next Monday.

Always grateful for your concern,
david

"Walk in all the way that the LORD your God has commanded you, so that you may live and prosper and prolong your days in the land that you will possess."

Deuteronomy 5:33

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Admission/Discharge from SGH

Dear all,
On Thursday, 2 Feb, I went to bed early after feeling tired and a little unwell.I also had a little diarrhoea.

During my sleep, I woke several times with cold sweat though I was sleeping with the air-conditioner on. Just before mid-night, I woke up again and this time, I vomitted several times. My BP was about 150/100. I sms-ed Dr William Hwang and was told to go to A&E dept, SGH for admission. I am thankful that my transplant physician bothered to call to enquire about me and to talk to the medical staff on call though it was past midnight when he could have gone to rest for the day.

At about 4am, I was wheeled to ward 72 where I am usually warded. Seeing some of the familiar nursing staff there helped allayed many of my anxieties, knowing that they are specially trained to nurse patients with bone-marrow transplants. Later the duty medical doctor came to clerk my case and I was told that all my blood tests were normal. I was then put on a drip to hydrate my body due to the vomitting and diarrhoea.Thank God it's just Gastroenteritis, must have eaten something wrong that evening. Or chinese new year cookies!

Because of pain in my throat and right ear, I was also refered to see a Senior ENT consultant the next day who is a christian. When he found out what I was working as, he even waived the charges for all the procedures done to check my ear and throat.
He took very good care of me - carefully examining,explaining everything to me. Thank God for placing such fine christian doctors in the healthcare industry to watch over patients like me. Indeed, God is always good, regardless of the sufferings.

Let me share with you one of the greatest blessings so far this year.
My parents came to see me yesterday at my home. What was really wonderful to me was to hear them pray for me. I was specially delighted because I know my uneducated parents have learned to pray in their simple ways though they do not know how to read the bible. And I know that they have learned to call upon the Lord during such times in our family crisis. Above all, I am thankful to hear them give thanks to God for all He's done for us. In fact, the day before, my father called me and at the end of the telephone conversation, for the very first time, I heard him say "Thank you, Lord" in mandarin. Indeed, it was a joy for me just to see them growing in Christ. Thank God for my monthly family prayer meetings. I am seeing more and more fruits and breakthroughs that has come out of the simple gathering of the family to worship, pray and spur one another.

Thank you all for praying for me and my family. Your prayers and encouragement have always helped us to know we are not alone.

Finally, please pray for
1. Whee Ling's grandma who is warded in Ward 73. He is in her 80's and is very ill. She has diabetes and her skin is very badly torn with foul-smelling fluids flowing out.She is a christian and we are releasing her to the Lord. Please pray that God will see her suffering and relief her of it.

2. My medical appointments this week:
A. 6/2, morning - See Dr. William Hwang for weekly follow up
B. 6/2, 11.45am - Head scan
C. 6/2, 2pm - see Urologist for Cystoscopy (Bladder check)

3. 7/2 - See Dental Surgeon for follow up of my oral GVHD - it's much better now than the last hospitalisation in Oct 2005

4. 9/2 - follow up appt with ENT specialist.

Thanks for standing with us in the gap,
david

"The fear of the Lord leads to life; Then one rests content, untouched by trouble."
Proverbs 19:23